Whoa. reaction to the very recent discourse on race... we have such a long way to go!

ok, i know i've said this before but i just do Not want to try to rationalize or understand whY n How a person could have gone through a class such as race and ethnic relations and come out still a racist ready to argue the 'facts'... like, i get that friend A wants to have a critical eye to some of the aspects of theories behind racim in a sociological theology, because of how repetitive and limited its scope was within the course (based on personal experience), but why in conversation does he so convincingly take the position of a 'naturalist' when in reality, i got Really excited when he mentioned that he had taken that class because I thought for a brief moment I was going to get to talk about race outside of our classroom without being disappointed :-(

then again, the other bird in the convo, that chirped his two cents in here and there, is like seriously the most close-minded student at iwu. that may be a Biased opinion since i think he just has irreversable personality flaws to put it nicely. but really, his position on blacks, affirmative action, concept of racism, black culture, Even Freakin Rap music are just one ignorant racist-filled slur of 'opinion' after another. didnt the KKK start in Indiana? maybe thats where it comes from...... lol jk. nvm. but maybe the friend that i respect was just sorta 'acting in-group' or maybe he just couldnt ever get out of the framework of knowledge/thought that blacks and whites are two completely different and the only Logical way for blacks to rise up from their oppressed state is to indeed "act white". he actually stated this term too, knowingly so, which i found interesting because he seemed to have an economically orientated theory on that and we talked about for a while...

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and then dumbass Indy was like "well, i don't think its 'acting white', thats not right, they just need to "ARTICULATE' themselves, act properly for a business world, and not be racist against us white people. thats not acting white, thats just how a person should BE." my inner monologue: "omg dude, its like talking to a wall. "all that psychology and sociology stuff" that you ConstantlY tell ME you can just "absolutely cant stand, would never want to take a class in, and do not see any point in that crap" is BEYOND YOU AND YOUR WORLD. how can you not see that?? youve never even taken a sociology class. why does everything that comes out of your mouth have to be dripping with such negativity and narcissism..... how can you sit there and go through that routine... that habitual routine that IS your personality... especially when ur opinion is so obviously unappreciated and often times disregarded by even ur friends... dude. wake up. evolve a little." [obvious seemingly unwarrented anger and resentment does not lie in the fact that his is an obvious 'white John' from last weeks film but somewhere else. and totally is warrented. but only one more month man :-) and then adiós blanco, asno de cierra-tiene inconveniente en.] k i feel better.


ok, back to more rational recollection of my recent inter-group discussion on race. i eventually found myself asking the questions that i knew the friend-that-i-have-respect-for would have to agree on, like proportions, unequal education opportunity, institutionalized racism, etc. its like i was fitting the discussion to his beliefs in order to find the places where we agree only because everything that i said in response to his opposition to accept and embrace other cultures was simply disputed with... well, key terms: violence, gangs, drugs, "responsibility of a community", "responsibility of an entire Race to help each other and bring themselves up"... i know these are like 'classic' claims, but its just so hard to converse about race when both people think they are right but cannot agree on one fundamental idea: White culture has the Responsibility to help those that we oppress. and i mean, its not like european domination from colonialism is way in the past... whites clearly have the upper-hand and run this country and this world.

oye... wheres the luv, man. open ur eyes and look around. doesnt Something seem wrong??? No? It doesn't? Oh yeah, thats right, I forgot... your world doesn't include blacks. maybe a minority here and there, but your world has a true absence of color and thats how you like it. thats why when you open your eyes and see the segregated schools and communities, the economically disadvantaged 'sustaining the cycle', and not a single black person confidently expressing their black culture... things... dont look wrong. or out of place. the order is just perfect; white on top. thats the spirit. It has been since the enlightenment...

I wish I could see the day that the paradigm shifts. I wish i was immersed in a white culture of people that had a lot less whiteness.... which is pretty damn hard to find round iwu. maybe im just lookin in the wrong places but maybe its somethin else...